My sister was in a car accident this afternoon, and Iâ€™m here, half the country away waiting for any news---there isnâ€™t much yet, sheâ€™s in the hospital and her husband is trying his best to hold it all together while fielding phone calls from us and trying to get permission to see her.
Up until a moment like this happens, you canâ€™t imagine what it will be like. The sudden prickly heat of fear traveling up your neck. The worry that makes your armpits damp, makes your voice quaver, makes you laugh nervously. There is no way of being able to know how the minutes suddenly slow. How you want to bargain with whatever profound forces are involved in such events: want to rewind time and have it happen differently.
Please send your thoughts winging out into universe her way. I love her dearly.